I FEEL TOTALLY NEGLECTED AND LEFT OUT. NO ONE WANTS TO GO OUT WITH ME , ASK ME OUT OR JUS EVEN TALK MUCH TO ME NOWADYS.

Am i jus so dislikable or i have jus so irritating that u will be so much happier not to see me or talk to me for jus one day.

Forget it, i am jus so sick of my life. I think i am jus born to study hard and excel in all my studies, then work for money and die peacefully. I am jus so simply upset today.

I fought with my brother about minor things but only wanted to do something to vent out all my angers. IN the end, we end up fighting and making me more upset. And the worse is that my mum even cried as she was so heartbroken that she sees the both of us fight. And me, more pain was created and i lost my N70. Now, i have no choice but to use back my old phone.

I really felt so sorry that i had vent all my angers on my brother and scolded him lots of bad words. But i really didn't mean it and i was super sorry. I really wanted to apologise to him but i did not even have to the courage to say it out. Maybe it is my ego.

I never really felt so sad but i will really change over after my fights with my bro. Seriously. I think i really need someone to snap me out of all these childish emotions of mine and i just really need to grow up. I cant forever make mistakes or just venting all my angers on my brother.

He had actually give in to me lots of times but i just will not admit my mistakes but instead, scold him for being kpo and prying into my privacy. I think in this world, except for my mother, the next person that i will turned to is my brother.

He is the one that really cares for me although he always bully me. I am really sorry that i had always been saying all the nasty and hurtful words to him but i really don't mean it. Although i wrote this post all about my brother but i jus dun wish that he sees all these. HAix, human are jus the funniest creature that does not like to express their feelings out.

OKay, i jus simply hope that my brother can pass him o' level and get into the poly that he hoped that he can go. Hope that days can pass faster and soon i will jus turn 60 years old and my days will be numbered.


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