I am super angry and emo today. Haix, i really tried to control my temper but i cant make it. I tell u it is super disrespectful to talk when someone is talking la. Thats wat teachers teach in school everyday and it is so damn obvious that u dun even give a damn.

Anyway i have enough of it le. If u think that u are so good at planning then u can plan for the upcoming new year party. If no ones wan to plan then we shall cancel it. I dun mind actually. I can jus stay at home and celebrate it with my family. Wats the big deal. And planner is suppose to plan not object at everything that ppl suggest la. I am so not going to plan this time.

PLan it urself or cancel it. Choose one. U can try planning it urself and see how hard is it la. When there is problem, all the blames will be on u again.

Anyway, till then,, i finally realised that i am not even important in all u ppl eyes. Even playing basketball, u all dun really care whether i went or even call me to go. Thanks a lot man. I wonder why am i so stupid to even call u all out to play basketball or even study. Since i am really so not important then i shall not go for the new year party too, as u all will have ur fun there, with or without me. Thats all i am going to say. Anyway my mood is totally spoiled. Thanks a lot, man.


6:39 PM

Ah i am sick and emo now. Dunno wat happen to me jus feel sad somehow. Maybe there is problem with me baa. Nvm, shall console myself. COme on jiaping, stay happy. Dun be so sad, smile and think positive.

I hate myself man. I really cant think well. I am so damn useless. Let me die soon. THen there will be world peace.

K today was also a sian day. WEnt to play basketball then do project. I jus waste my everyday life like that. Cant even find something more useful to do. Haix hopeless piece of shit la.


5:10 PM

ho ho ho. Merry christmas too everyone. Although today is still christmas eve but nvm la. Sort of angry today but still nevermind. Thanks to those that tried their best to make me happy. Thanks to pl and jt. Thanks guys.

Yeah went out early in the morning with pl on a date. HA. Shopping. Ha. Then went to the basketball court. Thought that we are late cause we planned to meet at 10.30 and we reached there about 10.32 but we were the earliest instead. Haix, that is expected one for sure. Ha. Being the santa claus today and giving out present. Ho ho ho.

PLayed bb and my team keep losing. Did not realised that my hey and oh was so useful. HA. Sorry to those ppl that i have injure. I did not do it on purpose. However, pl, shan and evon left earlier, so we continued playing. Ate chicken rice after that. Yummy yummy.

Went back to school but realised that the gate was closed. Cant get my ic today. Ahhh. Nvm i shall ren for a few days. MY dad spotted me when i was on my way home. HE is like super angry that i actually went out for so long la.

Reached home and suddenly, my bro and sis pop home. Wah lao, they actually only have to work half day. Sian. Actually planned to go east coast park to play and have dinner there and countdown. However, most ppl were busy and for some reasons, it was cancelled. Sad.

Today will be my last day going out le. My mum wans me to finish my hw asap and she dun allow me to go play bb anymore. SIan. Shall prepare my heart for school reopen. Ha. I was like planning about my future next time. HA. Super lame.

YEah i jus wish everyone a merry christmas and hope that u all really like the letter i wrote for u all ytd night. Hope that u still keep it but not throw it or stuff it somewhere. I will have a spotcheck soon. Hahaa. Hope that u all like the present that i give. Love ya all.


6:43 PM

Yeah i am back from malaysia. I can jus tell u that my whole post is all about complaining. Sorry that it is a long post. If u are bored, u can slowly read it. ha

19/12/07
This was the damn freaky day that i left home to the custom there. My relatives and i reached malaysia and u know wat happened, my uncle say that we are not going genting le. Damn spoiler leh. If they say that the journey is too far or something is still okay la. They jus say that they can get to book the hotel. Are they retard or retard. they book it one day before and expect to have rooms?

Okay thats still okay, we went to our uncle house instead and my grandfather called to say that he will be coming to malaysia the next day. He keep changing his mind la. so we decided to go other places to play the next day. So we spent our night at my uncle house. The worse is that my cousin are like shit la. They keep talking crap. I was like trying to aviod them the whole day but they jus keep sticking to u. Damn freaking irritating la.

So went out for dinner and they jus keep taking the food and cant finish. They really damn selfish la. When it is time to pay, they jus pulled their mum away. Clever right. I hate my relatives la.

20/12/07
I woke up super early la, thanks to them again. My cousin kept on shouting in the room and hitting my bed la. Thats super irritating right in the morning la. Then my uncle and auntie kept on shouting then banging the damn door la. Fine, that still okay. We set of too some super far away shopping centre and the whole trip is like 2 hours plus la.

I was like sitting in front of them two of them and they jus keep throwing rubbish on my head la. I was like eh enough la.Then i was like holding my bladder and they kept on making the shh sound la. They were super lucky that i never slapped them la.

When we reached the shopping centre, my uncle, auntie and cousin was suppose to take care of my grandmother. In the end, when my bro and i decided to go mac to buy food to eat after our shopping spree, we saw our grandmother sitting there la. We were like asking her how come she sitting there alone and she told us that they left her there for about 2 hours while they go shopping la. I was like wtf la.They damn irresponsible la. When they came back, they jus stuff the things to my grandmother will they go toilet. Eh, are u all even called adults la. Selfish piece of shit la.

Although i dun really like my grandmother cause she is super bias but i at least care about her la. In the end they jus act innocent and they even took away the fries my bro bought la. They reason is that they are hungry. I can jus say that my cousin are really thick skin la. They want to buy things that they like but they will never tell their mum la. They jus tell my uncle and auntie cause they know that they will buy it for them. HEy dun u even know wat is shameless la. If u dun have money then call ur mum to buy for u la, if not then dun buy. Loser shit la.

And they worse is that the auntie and uncle that abandon my grandmother there, is like forever saying that they are fillal. WOah indeed so 'fillal'.

21/12/07
We went to another shopping centre. My cousin finish buying all their stuffs so they jus sit there. Better to shop without them following us la. I bought my boots, handbag and cap there. HA so nice.

Shop shop shop and suddenly my uncle came and tell us that he going to buy my bro and i one mp3, cause my damn idiotic cousin wans one. EH wats ur damn problem la, if u wan one then buy it urslef, not to tell other ppl that u one and call them to buy it for u la. We went there and her mum does not allow her to buy. Serve her right. INstead the othe one wans to buy those illegal cd all those la. IN the end my uncle buy for him. U never know how greedy he is la. He bought 10 of it and it cost 12 plus. Eh if it is ur money, i bet u will only buy one la.

Then my cousin(girl) was suppose to look after my grandmother. IN the end my grandmother was standing alone near the road there and she jus went to some shops to buy necklace for herself la. Fuck shit la. I bet it is passed down from her parents from the genes. Selfish, greedy, self centered.

Then we went to some supermarket to buy food for dinner. WE shopped seperately and then he spotted a psp. No need to say la, obviously he will find someone to buy for him again. HE was like hinting in front of my uncle(the one that treats him the nicest, and he even bought him a watch that cost 100 plus). Then my uncle jus say, let go and he bought one for him la. Then their mum was like still talking crap la. She damn smart la, if she follow along then she have to pay money la. Then she keep saying that she is a failure in being a mum. Obviuosly la, only this type of parents will give birth to this type of children.

BUt at night was the best. My uncle opened childcare centre, so he bought home a kid and took care of him. He was like sitting in the kitchen alone so i jus went there to say hello then he passed me his toys and played with me. Haha. I can jus say that he damn cute la. His name is actually called ah bin, but my uncle called him lousy bin. So when i asked him for his name then he jus said lousy bin la. Super cute. THen we played hide and seek together. I hide but he dun find so i suggested to play other game. IN the end, he used his plastic sword and ball to play tennis.

I only know him for less then half an hour then he keep calling me jie jie then call me play with him. I only know that he likes to watch the channel 8, 9 o'clock show. Then , when it was the commercial break, he was like even singing one super cute advertisement to me la. HOwever his mum came to bring him home. Then he asked me whether i wan go home with him. Then he say that he will be coming to my uncle house tmr again then ask that whether i will still be there. Sadly i will be going home tmr la. When he went home he was like smiling at me and give me flying kiss. Ah so cute.

22/12/07
FInally i came back to singapore and i am not going to live with my relatives. YEah peace and happiness. My dad has been nagging for the past few days that his birds will starve and thrist to death la. IN the end, when we came back, it was still jumping about la. I rather it die la, at least i have peace.

I swear that i am not going on a holiday with my relatives anymore. Yeah i missed lots of ppl there and my basketball. HAix, my shooting skills really sucks. YEah super happy that lots of ppl missed me too. Yeah, basketball is actually boring without me. Ha ha. yeah love u ppl. Thanks da ge for sms me when i am there with all the fuckers. YEah oxygen , u are finally back. I am going to die soon. Ha ha.


5:33 PM

Forget it, since i am jus being ignored online, then i shall jus come and post about today. Went to play basketball in the morning and wat happened? It is raining again. Haix super sian one. And i gave every single one a morning call and everyone was late.

Yeah played basketball as a whole clique except for pl(my oxygen). I missed her a lot. Nvm, she will be back soon. Played for super long and i really got super tanned. And now, at this moment, my 2 pointers shooting was like shit. Haix, i am jus getting more and more hopeless.

I jus got stepped once, and my fingers are super pain now. Thanks to the stupid idiot basketball that i have. Useless ball. FIne, i am jus getting so damn sick of playing basketball le. Nvm shall go play when pl comes back as a real whole clique.

Yeah i am going genting tmr. Sort of sad la, cause everyone go places that are super super far on the aeroplane and me, yeah thats me. I am going to sit a coach there. My mum say that we even have to spend our night in the coach. Damn it la, i dun wan to sleep there. I wan sleep in the hotel. Objection!!!!

Dun worry ppl, i will bring gifts back if there is even a place to shop there. hahaha. I only have 20 bucks now so pls dun expect those ex things. I am jus a small girl that is super poor. I am so self entertaining now. shall say goodbye to everyone that i know. Everyone, will u all miss me? PLS say yes even if u dun. Ha, jus let me be happy. And pls dun post about u all having any clique outing or playing basketball thing pls. I will be super sad. Ha, i realised that i am so demanding.

I will miss all of you. Bye. Love ya. Thousands of flying kiss. Dun u dare to dodge it. whahahah


9:48 PM

I am somehow feeling quite sad now, for like no reason. I hate the feeling of being left out, substitute or even an entertainment. I need love and concern too although i looked happy-go-lucky.

I think the first thing that i am sad, is that peiling is flying off tonight. Although she will be back but i will really missed her a lot. She has been the one for me when i am really feeling super sad and angry. At least she does not come and fu yan me.

Secondly, my da ge(eugenice) is still not back from hong kong. I really missed her a lot. She has always been caring for me. Hope that she would come back in split second time. At least she is also the one that i could confide my problems with.

Lastly, i am really sick of those ppl that jus came and treat u as an entertainer. If u are really that bored, jus go and watch tv or play computer games. Anyway there is no need for u to even come and fu yan me la. I had enough of all these. And i am jus me not a substitute for anyone.

I will miss u peiling. Without you, my life is filled with carbon monoxide and nitrogen. Ha. Come back soon. Remember to buy me something from there. Ha. I have never been there before. BON VOYAGE


8:26 PM

U can never believe this. This letter is actually written from me last year. Haix this is really damn lame and i cant even stop laughing now. formal letter.

Beloved jiaping
10, flower road
Singapore:500111

22-9-06

Friend peiling
Hougang Ave 2, Street 21
Singapore: 599999

Beloved friend peiling,
RE: 'Love' letter and i am forced to write

I am writing in regards to your idiotic face. Today is oral and paper 1 day so must do more practice bei. Actually i think i very sincere cause i wrote a formal letter to you, ha! I am also here to remind you that u owe me $1 for your brother's curry puff.

To show my sincerity, I wrote this letter on 22th september, 8.10pm, 56 sec. I am here to show my tender, loving, care, ha! You must me more kuai like me! Must study more, so now i am at tution!

I shall be nice, so i teach u history now. Lee kuan yew is the most important charcter in history but he is not dead yet. My aspiration is to make you study hard for examinations. If you score high marks for exam, you must thank me for tutoring you.

Except for moral support, I will give you more love. A lot of people want my love also don't have! haha! Now do you think you are special? See my love letter got so many love, now you feel so loved right! Muahaha! Hope that i could get a favourable letter back from you!

Your beloved,
Jiaping

OKay thats all. Sorry pl. I did not know i was so lame. I will write another letter to u the next time


5:26 PM

Today is evon birthday. Not much comments here but i wish her a happy birthday. Yt and i went out for present hunting.

Haix, i actually got the place wrong, so yt is like silent anger. Then we went to fareast to buy the present. I did not even know that there is actually 2 fareast at orchad there. First, we went to that stupid idiot fareast shopping centre. The clothes there was so 'fashionable'. There is only one word to describe that place: eerie.

The shops at level 2 have only one shop that is open and it is the maid agency. Super creepy la, so me and yt was like dashing towards at escalator and out of that stupid shopping centre. Thanks goodness that i have not watch the movie about the maid before. Phew..

Wait, i have to thank someone here, which is our saviour for today and it is evon. Haha:) Thanks to her, we finally found the fareast plaza. K, i think the clothes there are nice. But the prices are some sort of steep. Shop about and we finally bought a pink shirt.

Then, we went to that stupid bookstore to shop. Yt was like choosing lots of it and i was like reminding her about wed. IN the end, i was even made to tell her 'dian xia qing san si'. Wat is this la. And she told me that i am 'yi ren zhi xia, wan ren zhi xiang'. But i am still inferior than her. Hmmpp...

Sort of fun shopping with her but i think it is sort of boring to go out in twos.


8:48 PM